Mariposa
Mon Jul 05 2010, 9:42am
Hi, it's me, long time no thread.
This is gonna be blah, alright?
There's gonna be a lotta blah in here, so lemme show you the exit door right there.Yeah, thanks for stopping by!
http://www.guerrilla-auction.com/guerrillaauction/auction_data/radicalwellbeing/listing_image/exit_door1.jpg
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Now, if you stayed, it's 'cuz you're aware that you will read some mental stuff and you are okay with it, you are willing to consider it as a different perspective, or maybe you can even relate to it, but if you stayed, don't be mean to me, it's the Let It Flow thread and I feel bad as it is.
Okay, it's been way too long now. I still don't know what to do with my life, and why is that? Because I don't really feel like living in the first place. I am only bearing it. I get distracted with all kinds of entertaining stuff, but when I go back to a regular monday.... ew.
It's the same old thing, I don't feel like doing anything, I am not working as much as coming to work. My dad and I went to the psychiatrist together last week, he wishes there was something he could do, but who can do anything about their child when they're just depressed? I feel depressed, and this has been years.
I hate where I live, I hate where I work and what do I do about it? Nothing.
Would a young girl who wants to live just stay uncomfortable? Would a smart girl who wants to live do nothing to move on? Would a healthy girl who wants to live never care to find a career or job? Would a girl who hates living with her mother stay living with her mother if she cared about herself?
Why do I care so little about myself? What do I seem to be so lethargic and apathetic? Why am I so far from alive? I can SEE people around me alive, more or less, but they have plans and they DO STUFF! I am still here doing nothing, nothing! And whatever I consider doing I'm like...
http://i172.photobucket.com/albums/w6/Fetus_Burrito/Hungry-LazyDilemma.png
Feels as if a veil was on me, a veil made of gum holding me back... a force... pulling me, and I can't over come it.
I feel trapped in this disempowering feeling, and I have no will, no strength and no fucking idea how to move on from here, I am stuck as fuck.
This is gonna be blah, alright?
There's gonna be a lotta blah in here, so lemme show you the exit door right there.Yeah, thanks for stopping by!
http://www.guerrilla-auction.com/guerrillaauction/auction_data/radicalwellbeing/listing_image/exit_door1.jpg
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ *~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ *
Now, if you stayed, it's 'cuz you're aware that you will read some mental stuff and you are okay with it, you are willing to consider it as a different perspective, or maybe you can even relate to it, but if you stayed, don't be mean to me, it's the Let It Flow thread and I feel bad as it is.
Okay, it's been way too long now. I still don't know what to do with my life, and why is that? Because I don't really feel like living in the first place. I am only bearing it. I get distracted with all kinds of entertaining stuff, but when I go back to a regular monday.... ew.
It's the same old thing, I don't feel like doing anything, I am not working as much as coming to work. My dad and I went to the psychiatrist together last week, he wishes there was something he could do, but who can do anything about their child when they're just depressed? I feel depressed, and this has been years.
I hate where I live, I hate where I work and what do I do about it? Nothing.
Would a young girl who wants to live just stay uncomfortable? Would a smart girl who wants to live do nothing to move on? Would a healthy girl who wants to live never care to find a career or job? Would a girl who hates living with her mother stay living with her mother if she cared about herself?
Why do I care so little about myself? What do I seem to be so lethargic and apathetic? Why am I so far from alive? I can SEE people around me alive, more or less, but they have plans and they DO STUFF! I am still here doing nothing, nothing! And whatever I consider doing I'm like...
http://i172.photobucket.com/albums/w6/Fetus_Burrito/Hungry-LazyDilemma.png
Feels as if a veil was on me, a veil made of gum holding me back... a force... pulling me, and I can't over come it.
I feel trapped in this disempowering feeling, and I have no will, no strength and no fucking idea how to move on from here, I am stuck as fuck.