I'm not sure.....

[simple soul]

where I am....besides sobbing into the wonderful world of Kleenex....thank God for those lucky little tissues.....I am lost...a very lost soul......I SO miss having my daughter in my life....I have friends, I have a wonderful financee, but I SOOOOOOOOO missssssssssss my daughter.... who is off at college. She has been home all week and just left to return to college and I'm just not sure I can survive. About this time, I'm thinking I could a survive a break-up from the fiancee better than I can survive this....so, why does my entire self feel so "left behind". I know it's not true, I know this isn't ME. But, I can't stop crying, Actually, I don't WAN'T to stop crying......I Just want all the hurting to stop.

[Flo]

Simple soul......to me, it sounds as if you are allowing your emotions to flow....every single one of them.....real, authentic and true. You are aware of the moment....being with your sorrow. This too shall pass, but for right now, allow yourself to feel what you feel. Our emotions are energy, guidance....they point to what we value and cherish. No need to choose. Motherhood is an eternal letting go. :heart::namaste::heart:


On Joy and Sorrow
Kahlil Gibran
Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.

Some of you say, "Joy is greater thar sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come, and when one sits, alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.

(not very abeish....but I honor all my emotions-tears can be so cleansing)

[simple soul]

Thanks so much!! I'm really just trying to get beyond...and I'm probably trying too hard. I'm feeling really DESPERATE right now......and I'm hating myself for the desperation......really, really hating myself because *I* know better......it's a real paradigm.....

[simple soul]

Soooo....really tried tooooooooo hard....managed to get the bf angry enough to leave....then had to leave a msg trying to say "sorry"......sheesh, I'm either psycho or have had tooooooo much to drink...probably the latter......feeling realllllllllly lonely in my bubble bath tonite.....LOL

[sara]

Well , dear :heart:SIMPLE SOUL:heart:!,
HOW BRAVE YOU ARE TO
share all this here!!
and how wonderfully human you are to feel enough love to hurt...and to allow yourself to cry....
Sometimes when we are very down we are scared that we will never stop crying...what I have found is that if one just completly lets go and allow one's self to cry it all out...what i have found is that i stop crying rather quickly...
it is the resistance
and fear that i would not ever stop crying
...if I started that made it go on and on for ever it seemed...
so when I learned to just get on my bed and have a temper tantrum and yell and sob!!!!!...
that in just a few minutes I was all cried out and felt good!!!!:heart::grin::heart:

Hugs galore!!!!!!
Sending you a blanket of pink love to wrap up in and feel better :heart::love::heart: ((((O))))))
(Don't forget about the emotional guidance scale...when you are ready... and pick the emotion just one step above where you are feeling now..:heart::grin:)


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I'm either psycho or have had tooooooo much to drink...




Nooooo JUST HUMAN!!!!!!:heart::grin::heart:




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THANK YOU
for allowing me to feel better about myself..
i have no fiancee (wonderful or not :facelol:)
and no kids
and I feel just fine...
Sometimes I think if I had a fiancee or kids that I would feel soo much better ..
you are teaching me that is not necessarily true..and I am appreciating myself more in this now moment for how well that I feel now and alone =THANK YOU :heart::grin::heart:

[simple soul]

Ohhhh, BLL, you are such a doll! Thanks so much for cheering my soul on in this dark moment....You blew on my candle flame..I've got a bit of light....kinda like a candle flame...but I gotta admit, the world is a whole different place depending on when you got the spotlight and when you got the candle....I'm hopin' I get to hold the spotlgiht again soon....that's a whole different world that's got a h*ck of a lot more happiness goin' on in it than mine seems like it has.........

[sara]

:heart::heart::heart::love::heart::heart::heart: :lasso:

[Flo]

Simple Soul,

How are you feeling this morning?

I just want to say that sometimes I think abe's teachings can lead us to a place where we judge ourselves for feeling our feelings...which can cause us to put happy stickers on our true authentic emotion.

Melt-downs, break-downs can be like ripping the Happy Sticker off and leaving us with a gaping sadness.....it is still OK. " I am where I am and that's OK."

For abe is not about pretending to be happy, but really being happy....no matter the contrast, no matter the external circumstances swirling around us.

It is about moving from powerlessness to power. From control to freedom.

I believe that the storms of emotions are a gift and blessing.....there is a pony in here somewhere. Like a thunderstorm, it clears the highly charged particles floating in the air.....and when it passes there is a new clarity.

You are expanding, growing, knowing....your emotions are guidance.

Who are you angry at?
(it's a step up from powerlessness....heading in the right direction.)

As always, take what resonates with you and your IB.....you know YOU best.

:heart:flo

[Pina Colada]

Simple Soul!

I just wanna give you a hug!Love you bunches!:heart:

[Flo]

YouTube- Abraham-Hicks - Humor is laughing and crying

[sara]

You are expanding, growing, knowing....your emotions are guidance.

Who are you angry at?
(it's a step up from powerlessness....heading in the right direction.)

vERY LOVING fLO...

fUNNY BUT LAST NIGHT ..
"OUT OF THE BLUE" =:facelol: :o :joylick:
A RAMPAGE OF ANGER CAME OVER ME JUST BEFORE BED TIME...
omg!!
:facelol: :facelol: :facelol: :facelol: :facelol:

i REALLY LET IT RIP!!! TALKING TO THE gODS!!!
CHANGING MY CONTRACT :joylick: :heart: :love: :joylick:
I FEEL GOOD NOW ..

ANGER RELEASE IS ALWAYS DELICIOUS AND VERY WONDERFUL
.....ESPECIALLY IF ONE LET'S IT OUT WHERE IT IS ,
and NOT PUT OUT ONTO OTHERS OR THE UNIVERSE PER SE...BUT HONESTLY KEPT WHERE IT IS :-)...Others have their own yuck and do not need any of mine :-)..and it feels better for me :heart::love::heart:

[Lolawashere]

Dear Simple Soul,
I know exactly how you feel. my son left and moved 5 hours away well over a year ago. I still haven't gotten over it. I miss him. I call him almost everyday. After he left, my whole life changed. I realized I didn't have to stay married anymore. I left my husband and filed for divorce!

I still find myself missing my son. I give myself permission to be sad for a little bit. I look forward to when he comes down to visit or when we go up there to see him. I think of him being happy. I think of him laughing and smiling. I send him blessings every night before I go to bed. I remind myself that he is safe. He is on his path. He is fine and I am, too. so are you and your daughter. :heart:

[Flo]

ANGER RELEASE IS ALWAYS DELICIOUS AND VERY WONDERFUL Yes, Nancy-Lou....I still believe that often there is a break-down just before a break-thru. It is all useful and valuable.....every one of our e-motions. It's about letting them flow, so they don't get stuck in the body.

This is one of my favorite "I'm angry songs" ......when moving up from powerlessness....

YouTube- Not Ready To Make Nice~Dixie Chicks (Lyrics)

[sara]

Yes, Nancy-Lou....I still believe that often there is a break-down just before a break-thru. It is all useful and valuable.....every one of our e-motions. It's about letting them flow, so they don't get stuck in the body.

Soo good FLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:heart::grin::heart:

[simple soul]

All of you are so great to respond!! Thanks and many hugs back to you.

I had my melt-down and just let it all out. I think I've been happy-stickering her being in college since she went. I have been happy FOR HER, but not really happy that she was gone. She's in her third year - my, I can happy-sticker like nobody's business LOL - and it just seemed to hit me. All of a sudden, it was like she was just leaving home for the first time. And I certainly didn't act like this then!

I fell apart, which was quite a surprise not only to Tim, but to me too! Nothing like surprising yourself and, lordy, try putting that into words.....it don't work very well.

I just kind of let myself 'be' Sunday and yesterday and whenever I felt sad, I thought of all the moms in the world who let their kids go back to school, so I know I'm not really the only one. Then today, I felt better. I know I'm proud of her and I like that she is responsible and dependable enough to make her own way in the world. And, even though, she's not a little girl anymore, she can always still be one in my heart.

Love you guys - thanks for being here!

[sara]

Love you guys - thanks for being here!

and right back at ya!!
Hugs galore!!!:heart::love::heart: