DebtFree
Wed Jun 11 2008, 4:25am
Hello there,
I'm not new to the Law of Attraction but I've obtained a new UserID, just for this question.
I am about to be sued for foreclosure for the second time in two years. The short version of this story is - divorced in 2003, poor credit, adjustable loan - and oh, I work as a subcontractor. My income has been sort of boom or bust. I always seem to be ahead or behind (what is). I always seem to come out alright, can get myself out of a jam, but I've noticed I keep right on getting into these jams. ^^
Also, I should mention, that I originally kept this house after the divorce because I had to pay off my ex for it, and refinance it in my own name.. so it's been a point of pride (in the past) that I was able to do it. I feel like I have made my point, I can thrive financially on my own, however; the last few years, I've been working more for enjoyment than for money. (Now it is time to flow for both!)
I'm not someone who is particularly worried about a credit score - they are a fact of life, but to me it is just an arbitrary number in a computer somewhere - it doesn't reflect the person/spirit that I am.
Anyway, having had been down this road in 2007, I'm not thrilled about repeating this experience. Last year, I was able to get the loan restructured, although I had the funds to correct things for months before the bank finally approved it and the papers were finalized. Plus, they said the payment would go up about $200, and it went up $600. It's also due to adjust (upwards) this summer. The number of foreclosures in my area has tripled and property values are dropping. I have to admit, there were times that I just thought.. I can give this money to the bank, or I can prepay almost a year's rent for myself in an apartment and start over somewhere else.
(Is it true that even if I walk away from the mortgage, that I can still be held accountable for funds?)
I do have a little bit of time and choices on my side, while deciding what to do. I have a lucrative contract coming up soon that will help me straighten it all out, but I'm still at loose ends about what exactly downstream will be for me.
When I really thought about it - I realize, I really like being a homeowner, I love having four walls that are mine... but I'm not wild about making monthly payments! Even if I was in an apartment, (sharing walls) knowing the thing was pre-paid for a year excites me. So then I thought, Hey! If I am going to have to go ahead and manifest a windfall to stop this foreclosure, then why not work instead on paying the whole darn thing off in full? I went into my Virtual Reality and imagined having barbeques and friends over, and knowing I didn't have to make a mortgage payment, felt pretty good. I imagined framing my Satisfaction Of Mortgage papers, and the being so proud to own the house free-and-clear. (So how's that for not looking at "reality"?)
So I'd love to hear from others who have paid their homes off early and also, I'm trying to weigh my options re: what to do. Here are some possibilities and how they feel to me:
Sell the house myself - it would need about $5k in cosmetic work before marketing it, and the RE market is not that hot in my area, Possible though.
Deed it Back to the Bank - um, not sure. Feels like instant freedom, and also a bit like giving up, or failure. Upstream.
Sit on it till they auction it - about 6-8 months of no payments, feeling a bit criminal. (I'm not faulting anyone else who has had to do this, but to me it feels UPSTREAM)
Bankruptcy and Debt Negotiation - giving myself the most possible time for working it out another way - perhaps even refinancing it with a fixed loan? if I can qualify, that is. Possible...
Thanks for your patience with my rambling thoughts. Overall, I am keeping my vibration high and hopeful around this, with the vast numbers of foreclosures around the country, I am sure others out there have the same types of questions. Or perhaps someone else has been through it and has some wisdom to share. I am very grateful for all of you! :heart: Thank you in advance.
Signed - Hopefully soon -
DebtFree
(Sorry this is sorta long .. it was deleted from the 'other board' for being too bloggy. Oh ppbbth :lol: )
I'm not new to the Law of Attraction but I've obtained a new UserID, just for this question.
I am about to be sued for foreclosure for the second time in two years. The short version of this story is - divorced in 2003, poor credit, adjustable loan - and oh, I work as a subcontractor. My income has been sort of boom or bust. I always seem to be ahead or behind (what is). I always seem to come out alright, can get myself out of a jam, but I've noticed I keep right on getting into these jams. ^^
Also, I should mention, that I originally kept this house after the divorce because I had to pay off my ex for it, and refinance it in my own name.. so it's been a point of pride (in the past) that I was able to do it. I feel like I have made my point, I can thrive financially on my own, however; the last few years, I've been working more for enjoyment than for money. (Now it is time to flow for both!)
I'm not someone who is particularly worried about a credit score - they are a fact of life, but to me it is just an arbitrary number in a computer somewhere - it doesn't reflect the person/spirit that I am.
Anyway, having had been down this road in 2007, I'm not thrilled about repeating this experience. Last year, I was able to get the loan restructured, although I had the funds to correct things for months before the bank finally approved it and the papers were finalized. Plus, they said the payment would go up about $200, and it went up $600. It's also due to adjust (upwards) this summer. The number of foreclosures in my area has tripled and property values are dropping. I have to admit, there were times that I just thought.. I can give this money to the bank, or I can prepay almost a year's rent for myself in an apartment and start over somewhere else.
(Is it true that even if I walk away from the mortgage, that I can still be held accountable for funds?)
I do have a little bit of time and choices on my side, while deciding what to do. I have a lucrative contract coming up soon that will help me straighten it all out, but I'm still at loose ends about what exactly downstream will be for me.
When I really thought about it - I realize, I really like being a homeowner, I love having four walls that are mine... but I'm not wild about making monthly payments! Even if I was in an apartment, (sharing walls) knowing the thing was pre-paid for a year excites me. So then I thought, Hey! If I am going to have to go ahead and manifest a windfall to stop this foreclosure, then why not work instead on paying the whole darn thing off in full? I went into my Virtual Reality and imagined having barbeques and friends over, and knowing I didn't have to make a mortgage payment, felt pretty good. I imagined framing my Satisfaction Of Mortgage papers, and the being so proud to own the house free-and-clear. (So how's that for not looking at "reality"?)
So I'd love to hear from others who have paid their homes off early and also, I'm trying to weigh my options re: what to do. Here are some possibilities and how they feel to me:
Sell the house myself - it would need about $5k in cosmetic work before marketing it, and the RE market is not that hot in my area, Possible though.
Deed it Back to the Bank - um, not sure. Feels like instant freedom, and also a bit like giving up, or failure. Upstream.
Sit on it till they auction it - about 6-8 months of no payments, feeling a bit criminal. (I'm not faulting anyone else who has had to do this, but to me it feels UPSTREAM)
Bankruptcy and Debt Negotiation - giving myself the most possible time for working it out another way - perhaps even refinancing it with a fixed loan? if I can qualify, that is. Possible...
Thanks for your patience with my rambling thoughts. Overall, I am keeping my vibration high and hopeful around this, with the vast numbers of foreclosures around the country, I am sure others out there have the same types of questions. Or perhaps someone else has been through it and has some wisdom to share. I am very grateful for all of you! :heart: Thank you in advance.
Signed - Hopefully soon -
DebtFree
(Sorry this is sorta long .. it was deleted from the 'other board' for being too bloggy. Oh ppbbth :lol: )