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Rainbowaterfall
Fri Sep 18 2009, 8:10am
When I initially encountered this I thought I need to go to abetalk and spray this anger out of me. I didn't. Now I will...
Be prepared, this is not life or death. It is not life changing - I guess I probably need to look at it as "my life changing!" I am just pissed and I need a place to piss this out.

Last night in the dark, I pulled in my driveway and thought I was seeing things. :scrming: When we purchased our home, at the entrance to the driveway, on either side was a beautiful big "Century" plant. It kind of resembles a giant succulent or something you would see out in the desert. They bloom once in 100 years and then the plant dies. The one on the left side of the drive did it's bloom a couple of years ago and died. The one on the right still had some life to go.
I put my car in reverse, directed it head on for the Century, turned on my bright lights and confirmed what I had seen. Our lawn man had chopped all of the leaves off. :-x:eek::o:cry::rolleyes::rolleyes::rolleyes::(:mad: :puke: Now it looks like a huge baby pine cone sitting on the lawn with two giant stems sticking out of the middle. (I feel like I need to justify to you guys why we have a lawn man - my shit obviously. My primary upstream work has to do with finances and scarcity.)
Anyway, perhaps you folks sitting on the outside of me can see a connection between my scarcity vs abundance issues and this wonderful century years old plant. I may get there if I can .... or when I can.... or -or- or- or- not.
Before even straightening out my car to get into the garage I called Peg and asked, "Were you home when the lawn guys came?" She responds, "Yeah, I saw what they did. But it will be o.k. - it will grow back." She knows I am upset. Whenever anyone has come in to trim back our greenery it is major trauma for me. We have about 1/3 of an acre, lots of privacy provided by all kinds of mature plants and trees and I love it. I had thought perhaps the lawn man had explained to her why this had to be done. However, I can hear she is not going to join me in my rampage of anger, she had earlier told me she was tired and at the grocery store so I didn't want to take her time pissin on the phone, and what the hell makes her think it will grow back. The thing only blooms once every 100 years!
I attempted to engage her again when she came home and it was clear she wasn't bothered by it. It makes me sick!!!!!
I am probably going to call him today and see what the hell inspired his action. God damn it! I think I will type in full caps here - I know you guys can PUT UP WITH MY YELLING!
PEG IS OFTEN INTIMIDATED BY THE THOUGHTS IF WE UPSET THE WORKMEN THAT DO THINGS FOR US THEY MAY NOT COME BACK TO DO OUR WORK AND WE WON'T FIND ANYONE ELSE TO DO IT FOR SUCH A REASONABLE PRICE. GOD DAMN IT! I EXPECT THAT WHEN THEY ARE DOING OUR LAWN IF THEY ARE GOING TO DO ANYTHING SIGNIFICANT OTHER THAN MOWING AND KEEPING THE HEDGES TRIMMED AND CLEANED OF VINES THEY NEED TO ASK US. I HAVE REPEATEDLY SHOWN THIS GUY WHAT IS IMPORTANT TO ME. -EVEN BROUGHT HIM IN THE HOUSE TO SHOW HIM OUR VIEW FROM OUR FAMILY ROOM AND WHY I DON'T WANT ANYTHING TRIMMED FROM THAT AREA. IT IS WONDERFUL PRIVACY, NICE SHADE PROVISION, AND JUST BEAUTIFUL THE WAY IT GROWS. SO I AM FIGURING THE JERK KNOWS I DON'T WANT THINGS CUT OR TRIMMED UNLESS WE ASK FOR IT. I EVEN WALKED WITH HIM IN THE FRONT YARD TO SHOW HIM THAT WE WANT THE VINE WITH THE HUGE TROPICAL LEAVES TO KEEP GROWING ON THE OAK TREE SO PULEASE, PLEASE STOP TEARING OUT THE VINE FROM THE BOTTOM. SEEMS PRETTY CLEAR TO ME - THE ONLY TIME I HAVE EVER BEEN UNHAPPY WITH HIS WORK IS WHEN THEY HAVE TRIMMED OR TAKEN TOO MUCH.
SO ANYWAY, I WILL UNDOUBTEDLY BE CALLING HIM TODAY - I DON'T WANT TO VOMMIT ALL OVER HIM :puke: WITH MY PHONE CALL - BUT DAMN IT - HOW DARE HE TAKE THAT FROM US WITHOUT EXPLANATION OR ASKING!!!!!
I DON'T KNOW IF PEG KNOWS WHAT SHE IS TALKING ABOUT SAYING IT WILL GROW BACK. IF IT ONLY BLOOMS ONCE EVERY 100 YEARS (THUS CALLED CENTURY PLANT...) WHY DOES SHE BELIEVE THAT IN OUR LIFE TIME WE WILL SEE THIS FULLNESS RESTORED. AT FIRST I THOUGHT SHE WAS JUST TRYING TO SOOTHE ME. SHE HAS WATCHED ME OVER THE TEN YEARS WE HAVE LIVED HERE BE THE MOST DEVASTATED WHENEVER OUR GREENERY IS TRIMMED TOO MUCH. HOWEVER, THEN WHEN SHE GOT HOME I COULD SEE AND FEEL - SHE REALLY IS O.K. WITH IT. NOW I WILL TELL YOU SHE HAS NOT SEEN IT IN THE DAYLIGHT YET. HMMMMM......
O.K. - SO LAST NIGHT I TELL MYSELF, I MUST HAVE ASKED FOR THIS. HMMMMMMM REALLY? REALLY? i MEAN :orly: :nowai: :orly: :nowai: GOD DAMN IT! I HAVE BEEN DOING SOME DOUBTING OF ABRAHAM TRUTHS LATELY SO IS THIS SUPPOSED TO HELP ME GET LINED UP AGAIN?????????
WELL, IS IT???????? SO IS THIS SUPPOSED TO HELP ME GET LINED UP AGAIN?????????
WELL, IS IT????????

sO, I TELL MYSELF I AM TRAVELING UPSTREAM. YEP YOU DAMN RIGHT I AM. I TRY TO THINK NOW WHAT WOULD ABE SAY? WELL, I JUST DON'T KNOW. I CAN HEAR ESTHER SAYING, "NOW ABE YOU'VE GOT TO GIVE IT TO ME ON THIS ONE." AND ABE RESPONDING, NOPE. yOU HAVE INCREASED YOUR VISION OF YOURSELF AND HAVE NOT STEPPED INTO THAT YET. SHIT. i'VE ALWAYS TAKEN THAT TO MEAN, I REALLY AM INSIDE MORE OF AN UNCONDITIONALLY LOVING PERSON, SO WHEN I AM PISSED WITH SOMEONE I AM STEPPED AWAY FROM THE EVER ENLARGING UNCONDITIONALLY LOVING PERSON I REALLY AM.
WHAT THE HELL DO I DO WITH THIS ONE?
eVERY TIME I LOOK OUT MY FRONT WINDOW AND EVERY TIME I COME HOME AND ARRIVE IN MY DRIVEWAY THIS DEMONSTRATION OF ME STRETCHING TO MEET ME IS GOING TO GREET ME - SO I SURE WOULD LIKE ANY INSIGHT YOU GUYS MIGHT HAVE TO THIS. I'D LIKE TO TAKE A PICTURE TO SHOW YOU ON HERE BUT I'VE NEVER SUCCESFULLY LEARNED TO POST PHOTOS ON HERE.
IM GOING TO LEAVE THIS FOR NOW AND HOPE I GET SOME POSTS IN RETURN THAT HELP ME GENUINELY GET TRAVELING WITH THE DOWNSTREAM CURRENT - NO HAPPY FACE SLAPPING ON HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!

Rainbowaterfall
Fri Sep 18 2009, 8:20am
am posting this so i can get any email responses that might come during the day while i am away from my computer. Thanks in advance for your wisdom!!! I am feeling pretty confident this will be a giant beautiful reminder of something (????) good ...

Mariposa
Fri Sep 18 2009, 8:47am
Rainy... :heart:

I'm really sorry about your century tree... :hug:

It is absolutely perfect and okay that you care about your greenery this much, you know what's important to you, you clearly love nature and enjoy living in its surroundings. So each and every plant and tree means a lot to you. Specially one of this kind.

Perhaps you've had some pushing-against sort of vibration going on regarding your gardeners work. When you took the time to make it so clear to him that you DIDN'T want him to over trim anything, you were actually acting from a place of fear. Did you trust him? Did you feel easy about this? Or was there any vibration left on this subject?

This is what I tend to think when I find my self in a situation like this. But also, I have realized that it is definitely not life giving at all to invest much time in this inward search for cause. You might feel the need to find a meaning or lesson to learn from this event, but in my experience, sometimes, the only thing we get is an opportunity to let go, to be flexible, to be allowing, and to still have faith and trust in life to provide for us abundantly.

Holding on to anything too strong when it is taken away from us, always hurts. Letting go doesn't. Allowing the stream of life to take the energy and transmute it into something else that will come back as a different blessing feels like a healthier choice, doesn't it?

Much love to you :kiss:

Thank you for sharing with us, thank you for co-creating these new understanding within me as well. I suggest you take a moment to walk through your garden and appreciate each and every living creature in it and breath its allowing nature in, may they show you how it's done in a grand way ^^.

Maris :love:

Joyful
Fri Sep 18 2009, 10:30am
Anyway, perhaps you folks sitting on the outside of me can see a connection between my scarcity vs abundance issues and this wonderful century years old plant.

IT IS WONDERFUL PRIVACY, NICE SHADE PROVISION, AND JUST BEAUTIFUL THE WAY IT GROWS. SO I AM FIGURING THE JERK (the Universe) KNOWS I DON'T WANT THINGS (abundance) CUT OR TRIMMED UNLESS WE ASK FOR IT

THE ONLY TIME I HAVE EVER BEEN UNHAPPY WITH HIS WORK (the Universe's work) IS WHEN THEY (the Universe) HAVE TRIMMED OR TAKEN TOO MUCH.


GOD DAMN IT! I HAVE BEEN DOING SOME DOUBTING OF ABRAHAM TRUTHS LATELY SO IS THIS SUPPOSED TO HELP ME GET LINED UP AGAIN?????????


Are you feeling powerless, pissed off at the Universe? I played with the word "Universe" in your words, just to see if it might be so. :facelol:

Has the Universe trimmed your finances/abundance, when you didn't ask for that? You feel like it's going to take forever to restore your abundance (like 100 years)! Peg is saying...it will grow back again (your finances/abundance).

On your life:

Just because you don't see growth does not mean it's not happening right now. A tree grows from a small seed...though if you looked innocently at the seed, you would have no idea of the enormous potential in it...to one day become a tree and bear even more fruits (abundance). :joylick:

At this very moment, you are as powerful as that seed, with so much potential! Know it, own it! Just relax and allow yourself to blossom...the force within you knows how. You don't have to figure out how your abundance will come, just flow into it.

There is no scarcity (or scare city) anywhere! :facelol:

Love,

Mary

New Dawn Rising
Fri Sep 18 2009, 1:03pm
Hi Rainbow! Ya know... your rampage of rage was pretty funny. Because you sound just like me when I'm pist! Funny to hear myself rage. :facelol:

When I moved into my home our neighbors to the south had a wall of trees next to the fence - creating lovely shade and privacy. So I planted shade loving plants - ferns, camellias, fushias, etc. Well, about 5 years ago they cut down half the trees so my camellias bake in the summer sun. :o Then, just yesterday I came home and they had cut down the other half of the trees! :o Fuckers.

Anyway, when I get pist about stuff I do EFT. Calms me down pretty quick by releasing the bound-up energy and tension. Works great AND its permanent. I recommend it.

Wanted to comment on this:
(I feel like I need to justify to you guys why we have a lawn man - my shit obviously. My primary upstream work has to do with finances and scarcity.)
So I have a lawn man AND a maid. Ha! And you know what? I deserve it and so do you. Perhaps your "guilt" about having this yard man in the first place is showing up in this way? I dunno - just a guess.

My yard man gets carried away sometimes too. I pay him really well and he desperately needs the money so he tries too hard to make me happy. Unfortunately, we can barely communicate - he speaks very little English. So... I have learned to just smile and think to myself: it will grow back. I don't want to fire him because he is an old man and I know how much he needs the money. And usually he does a great job.

My sympathies Rainbow. Now I'm going outside to glare at my neighbors over the naked fence. :p

Pina Colada
Fri Sep 18 2009, 1:36pm
Pissy chicks are the best.:heart:

Gina
Fri Sep 18 2009, 1:59pm
Love you. :heart:

Kameroon
Fri Sep 18 2009, 1:59pm
I would chop his balls off.
If he complains, tell him they will grow back. ;)

Gina
Fri Sep 18 2009, 2:01pm
:tearlol: Mury!

Pina Colada
Fri Sep 18 2009, 2:06pm
Mury LMAO XD

sara
Fri Sep 18 2009, 3:29pm
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That is all that i can do my dear dear treasured rainbowaterfall goddess that you are!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DO YOU NOT FEEL BETTER!!!!!!
It felt sooooo good to me that you got all that anger out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are a Source/goddess having a human temper tantrum...and isn't it divine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You are still Source/Goddess and we still love you and Source still loves you.......
and I spent time yesterday with a gal who is living 4th stage intestinal cancer....
AND how healthy are you right now???=very healthy I would say...
let's see what could we start our Book of positive aspects with today???
Maybe that you are alive and have a house and 1/3 acre and a business on the beach and you are beautiful and vibrant and

wouldn't it be nice if you found another beautiful flora to focus on for now..and
wouldn't it be nice if that plant did grow back and
wouldn't it be nice if matrix energetic/magic would work on my beloved plant and
wouldn't it be nice if that gardener's dick fell off and ...
ooops

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Rainbowaterfall
Fri Sep 18 2009, 7:25pm
You guys are all so fun! and wonderful! and clever! and smart! I am laughing out loud as I hear your responses!!!

Interesting that today a woman from a company corporate in San Diego - (hmmmm.....) (do you have anything to do with this Dolphin?) spoke with me on the phone about needing a person with my kind of state license to do some counseling for some people in my county. No details yet - just an interesting event possibly leading to more abundance!!!

Thank you so much for your responses! I think I may see if I can associate the view of the century plant without spikes with your funny responses about the gardener's penis and balls!

Lots of wet sloppy kisses to you all! :joylick:

sara
Fri Sep 18 2009, 7:52pm
You guys are all so fun! and wonderful! and clever! and smart! I am laughing out loud as I hear your responses!!!

and that was the point!!!!!!
YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
laughter tends to put one right into their Source even deeper .. :)
Great for you !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :heart::heart::facelol::heart::heart::love::heart: :heart:

Jobo Pooks
Wed Oct 21 2009, 2:07pm
Why all the big bold text?:confused: