So, I wrecked my car.

[Gina]

I was turning left outside my daughter's school. Tons of traffic all around. Everyone was waiting for me. I waved thanks and started to go. Down the road comes hauling ass this woman in a Lexus and nails me hard.
Everyone is fine physically.
Car is trash.
Now I have no car, I have to go fuck with this in court, and my insurance is going to skyrocket. And more expenses mean I am more tied to Mike and less able to move on with my life even than before.
Help me feel OK with this please because I am not having any success with it.

[Pina Colada]

Your car wreck story beats my dying laptop story.

I bow before the queen.

Faeries of the Universe are on it.:heart::heart::heart:

[Joyful]

Ah Gina, just relax and know that everything will be resolved in an effortless way...let the universe handle all of the details. Trust.

Love,

Mary

[Rodney]

Most of you are taking this Way Too Seriously. And what we would want is for you to relax and chill, bask in the energy of what feels good in this moment, and let the Well-Being that is the Greater Part of You take care of all the details.

[Dance of Joy]

Gina,

Often, the situations that look the worst turn out to be the best. Just wait. The good bits are on their way.

Love and hugs,
Christine :heart::heart:

[Dance of Joy]

situations like the one you're having right now (are) completely & utterly FILLED with magic, if you let it come to you:heart:

Exactly. :grin: :heart:

[Tai]

Ahh Gina, big hug to yo :hug:
I'm glad you are alright, and I can understand this feels pretty shitty right now.
Like everyone else already said, there can be a hidden gift in this. Even when the gift is showing yourself you can stay positive, or go back to positive, in the middle of all of this. Maybe this is an opportunity where you can see your own power, and learn better how to stay, or go back to it.
Love to you :love:

[Dance of Joy]

And just like this forum section says, it is okay to LET It FLOW. You don't have to be all happy and fluffy.

Like this ~

http://abetalk.com/showthread.php?t=4281&highlight=angry

Hugs, Gina!

[Gina]

I was doin' all right 'til I got to asemaa's post.
Yeah, yeah, asemaa, it's all 'cause of my shitty, shitty vibe.
Silly me, I forgot to blame myself for it.
Here, let me whip myself a little harder.

[Gina]

Thank you, Leah. :hug:
Thank you, all. :hug::hug:
I do appreciate you.

[Gina]

I think you "should" do precisely whatever it is you choose to do, asemaa.
Whether you respond to my posts or not is entirely your choice and whatever you choose, I respect it, not that it matters one whit how I feel about it.

As always, I thank you all ("all" includes asemaa) for your thoughts.

I think anyone here who has read my posts in the past has seen that hanging on to good feelings and good feeling thoughts has been a pretty precarious thing for me, and that I am not yet, even after years of working on it, at a point where I don't let conditions affect and even dictate my feelings.
All I am trying to do here is feel better about this right now. This is the immediate need.

I was thinking about the Sonia Choquette video someone posted here recently where she said whenever something unwanted happens, we may ask ourselves, "What good will come from this?"
Right now, as most of you suggested, that thought is where I am trying to dwell. It's not the easiest under the looming spectre of having to cough up tens of thousands of dollars to have this woman's Lexus totaled, but I am trying.

Something good will come from this. I will get a better car. That much is for sure. This is something I have asked for, and I had to laugh as the idea occurred to me that this is my crack of least resistance. A very, very, very costly, dangerous, and inconvenient car wreck? Really? In the future, it is my preference to, say, win one in a sweepstakes. OK, U? ;)

[Gina]

Thank you, Leah. :kiss5:

[Dance of Joy]

WOOHOO. Gina, when you see from broader perspective, as you just did, oooo, then things really start to sizzle for you. :grin:

[Gina]

That was a lovely, lovely post, asemaa, and I appreciate it greatly.

As for the situation with Mike, I don't want to go from this relationship to another and another and another. I just don't want to be in this one. If I'm never in another, fine. The truth is what I am experiencing now is not really a relationship in the sense it is intended in that Abe quote, and it never has been. Never. Not for 5 minutes. Never, ever.
So I have chosen a path, but I haven't lined up with it. Or I haven't really taken that path, though I am vibrationally completely lined up with it, rather.
Either way, I do seem to be hitting those trees pretty hard right now...

I appreciate your thoughts on this.
I will chew on them for a bit.

[Gina]

WOOHOO. Gina, when you see from broader perspective, as you just did, oooo, then things really start to sizzle for you. :grin:


Thank you, Angel Christine. You're so magic. :love:

[Dance of Joy]

Gina :hug:, you are about to find out just how magic you are too. :grin: http://smileys.smileycentral.com/cat/12/12_1_126.gif (http://www.smileycentral.com/?partner=ZSzeb001_ZNfox000)

[sara]

Something good will come from this. I will get a better car. That much is for sure. This is something I have asked for, and I had to laugh as the idea occurred to me that this is my crack of least resistance. In the future, it is my preference to, say, win one in a sweepstakes. OK, U? ;)

YES :heart:GINA :heart:, you are doing good here!!! It makes me laugh ..your comments :facelol::facelol: :joylick::joylick: :D :facelol::facelol::facelol::facelol:!!!
I trust that you can laugh too!!!!!=cuz it feels sooo good
and cuz it will shift your feelings into better and better faster!! You are doing better!!! YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:wave::spin::spin::spin: :dance2::dance2::dance2::thumbscool::thumbscool: :thumbscool::hamsters::hamsters::woohoo::woohoo::c lap::clap: :clap:

[cigi]

Either way, I do seem to be hitting those trees pretty hard right now...


Hi Gina.

You've gotten some really wonderful responses already, but I'm just now playing catch up on this thread.

For twelve years, I was married & for the last almost 9, I have been a (mostly) stay-at-home-mom. For most of the 12 and definitely the 9, I was lining up with getting out. The hardest part was trying to figure out how I was going to re-emerge into the working world & support my self & my children without compromising the "lifestyle" to which we'd grown accustomed. Underneath it all, I desperately wanted change & freedom.

Then the U started stepping in. In the past 18 months, the financial reversals have been mind boggling. My family became the poster-children for "Global Economic Crisis." The business failed, we had to pull out all our investments & cash in all our savings just to maintain the sinking ship. Everything was on the chopping block. I had to give up my car without a replacement. I did not see at the moment that the U was working on a plan to push me out of my nest.

The idea of leaving seemed like a monumental task. I began to calculate every available option & nothing seemed like it would work. I gave up & TRUSTED. I told Hub that I was leaving & wanted a divorce & even if he had to take the kids temporarily, I couldn't stay in it. I'd get a job & a car & a house & get them back. That was the worst - the idea of being away from them. I REALLY pondered the idea that if I was making the right move it wouldn't feel so truly awful, but I had no other available solution. Again I had to TRUST.

THEN out of the blue in the most magical way I was GIVEN a home, a car & some pretty great leads on part time jobs while the kiddos are in school. I moved in ASAP. All of this happened in a span of 10 days from the day I said, "I'm OUT."

That was just under 2 weeks ago.

I have an old friend who used to say, "Jump! and the net will appear." He was right. And if it will appear for me, it will appear for you.

It's law.

[sara]

OMG!!! :heart:CIGI :heart:!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HAD NO IDEA OF ALL OF WHAT YOU WENT THROUGH!!!!!!!!! :confused: :( :cry: :o :rolleyes: :shock: YIPES!!!

YOU ARE ONE BRAVE COOKIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:shock:

AND A WAY SHOWER FOR OTHERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:meditate:

I COULD NOT BE HAPPIER FOR YOU !:heart::grin::joylick::joylick::heart:

YOU DESERVE EVERY OUNCE OF ALL YOUR GOOD!!
SOURCE LOVE AND HUGS GALORE :lasso::hug::hug:to my dear Southern friend :downstream2::rocket::downstream2:

[cigi]

OK Gina....

Here's a pm I sent August 5th - just so you don't run across the misconception that I have any *magic* goin on you can't create for yourself. I would have posted the whole story originally, but it was just too long.:rolleyes:

My sister in law has been staying with us off & on for several weeks. For 25+ years, she has been in an abusive relationship. She has been told constantly how worthless she is & she bought a good bit of it.

She went back to school & got a degree, became a chemist & the light at the end of the tunnel seemed near. Then the economy swooped in to remind her she was a failure once more. She lost her job & can't seem to get another one outside of part-time minimum wage. NOT enough to support 3 kids & escape the madness of her current situation.

A few weeks ago, a friend of mine approached me & knowing her situation, offered her his rental house for $500 a month. WAY CHEAP. She really wanted to take it & couldn't because even that great steal was too much to afford. Right now, she can't even pay for utilities.

Despite all these setbacks, SIL has become so amazingly positive over the last few weeks. She has decided that the Universe is indeed magical, she has an amazing light of her own & she was going to be just fine. Tuesday she sat me down & had this talk with me & was just so happy she began to tear up with the joy of it all.

Last night, that same friend came back & said he just really did not want her in that situation anymore. He offered her the house for FREE & even said he'd pay for the utilities himself for a few months.

All he's asked in return is that she love the house & take good care of it.

There is a point to all this rambling (I think). For over 2 decades this woman has been living in turmoil and she has been ASKING the U to show/give her a way out. The U stayed silent & seemingly ignored all these pleas. And within 24 HOURS of her pivot back to a life where miracles happen, a MIRACLE happened.Ya need out? Guess what? It's already cookin'.

Work your magick.

:love::love:

[Pina Colada]

Mmmm Cigi and Rose,that was beautiful.

Gina :hug:

[Tai]

I have an old friend who used to say, "Jump! and the net will appear." He was right. And if it will appear for me, it will appear for you.

It's law.

Isn't this the opposite of aligned action? I like this better than aligned action though :facelol:

[Gina]

Wow, cigi.
Wow.

Thank you.


OK, I am thinking about all this.


Thank you, everyone. :grouphug:


Love you, Pina! :kiss4:

[Gina]

So, I have made peace with the wreck, I don't feel at fault, I KNOW it's not 'cause I'm just a big ball of pent up anger, I know I didn't "deserve for something bad to happen," blah blah blah.
And someone wonderful and amazing and accomplished, whom I respect highly, listened to my whole story, to every little detail and said, "What I am hearing is that you are surrounded by love," and rattled off a bunch of evidence of that fact, which really clicked for me and helped me move forward from feeling bad about the wreck.


But...

I didn't want to start a whole new thread about it, but...
I just can't pull myself out of feeling bad, now. Not about the wreck, about everything. Shopping for a car is wearing me out. I am soooooooooo lonely in my life. Mike is the one taking care of everything here and it feels like he is all I have and I don't even want to be with him. I have all these mixed feelings, like, I should relax and find a car I like and not worry about it VS. oh boy, I am letting him help me with this and spend all this money on me and I am just that more indebted to him and tied to him and unable to leave. I think things like, how can I let him buy me a new car when I would leave him "this red hot minute" if I could?
And... Then... More significantly... I just feel sad, about I don't even know what. Like, I cry all the time. I don't even think there are any specific thoughts attached to this feeling.
I don't really know what to do. Right now I am just kind of trying to ride it out but I don't see the end of the ride anywhere.

[Pina Colada]

Cutie Gina,I just wannna give you a big ole´warm hug.Love you chickie!:heart:
:hug:

[ShelleP]

Shopping for a car is wearing me out. I am soooooooooo lonely in my life. Mike is the one taking care of everything here and it feels like he is all I have and I don't even want to be with him. I have all these mixed feelings, like, I should relax and find a car I like and not worry about it VS. oh boy, I am letting him help me with this and spend all this money on me and I am just that more indebted to him and tied to him and unable to leave. I think things like, how can I let him buy me a new car when I would leave him "this red hot minute" if I could?

Hey Gina,

Sorry to hear you're still feeling so yucky...and I'm not sure if this will help or not, but people do what they do, regardless of what we want them or think you need them to do. I know I don't know you really, or your situation with Mike, but can you soothe yourself with the fact that all really is well? The fact that Mike is taking care of all of this, no matter how you feel about him is great, because it shows that you have enough feelings of abundance and worthiness to get a new car when you need one. Energy/money flows freely...whether we are open and allowing to receiving it is another story. You are not indebted to anyone - that's a belief that you keep telling yourself, but it's not true. You're exhausted looking for a car because you're not lined up with feeling deserving of it or the crack of least resistance it's coming through. We can all beat ourselves up over what we think we owe others or others owe us, but all of that is just in our head - it's not really reality. You can't understand exactly what's going on with Mike and why he's helping you with a car, but you're getting a new car! The U. is taking care of you through the crack of least resistance...no reason to feel bad about it or assign what it means or doesn't mean to Mike. You can't experience or truly understand what another is doing and why. What if Mike is doing this just because it makes him feel good to be able to do it? What if Mike is doing this because he feels guilty because he's not happy either and this eases his feelings of guilt? What if this is super inconsequential to Mike and you're all wrapped up in guilt over nothing? What if Mike feels deep down inside that he wants you to go too and knows you'll never go without a car, so he's getting you a car to move you closer to freedom? What if you get a car and discover a big wad of cash hidden in the trunk and it's enough to pay Mike back AND start a new life? What if getting this new car makes you so happy that suddenly you're aligned with winning the lottery and then all of the things you've been worrying about become immaterial? What if...are there any what if's or wouldn't it be nice statements that can make you feel soothed out of guilt and indebtedness? Sometimes if I can get into seemingly silly and ridiculous what if or wouldn't it be nice statements it's enough to make me laugh and shift my vibration enough to get out of sad/stuck/yick...

Again, not sure if this helps or not - leave it all and call me crazy if nothing here feels right to you.

Big hugs and relief to you!!

:love::heart::love::heart::love: Shelle

[cigi]

I don't really know what to do. Right now I am just kind of trying to ride it out but I don't see the end of the ride anywhere.

If you don't know what to do ---just wait. Your solution will find YOU when you are ready.

There is no time - no deadline - no hurry. Just BE.:heart:

[Gina]

Shelle...
That was brilliant.
Thank you so much.
can you soothe yourself with the fact that all really is well?
Yes, I can. Thank you for the reminder to assume nothing, that everything I wrote I was feeling is just a story.

Cigi,
Thank you.
I will.


Pina, as always, I love you.

I love you all.
Thanks.
Really, thanks.
:grouphug:

[ShelleP]

Mwah! :kiss4: :hug:

[sara]

If you don't know what to do --
-just wait.
Your solution will find YOU when you are ready.

There is no time - no deadline - no hurry.
Just BE.:heart:

WOW :heart:CHRISTY :heart:!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!,
You have become soo wise in such a (relativity) short time!!!
What you have said here is brilliant!
...brilliant for a lot of questions
......about a lot of topics!!!!!!!!!!!

Major great quote for me!!!!
I APPRECIATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mwah!!!!!!!!!!!!!:heart::heart::love::heart::heart :

[cigi]

Awwww. I appreciate you too, Nancy-Lou-Who!:heart:

:hug: