oh no im upstream!

[Kameroon]

Oh noo... again university made me turn myself upstream. I woke up
and boom worrying.

I am freaking out:o
But I have let this go ... now I think someone elses opinion is triggering this in me. Which sucks!

But my worries are mostly around... well... I just so want to finish this school fast enough so i can pack my bags and move... but I guess it wont be fast enough... damn im so sad.... why am I not even pissed???
:cry:

im like, damn ill be 23 when i finish. my career is over hahahahha.

fuckkkk...
I dont really know.... maaan I hate this...and I hate to go to this university actually again, but I do want to go.... but there is so much negative emotions that I have attached to the professors ..... blaaah lousy... why did I do this to myself?

so annoying.....


what do I think now? hurry before i jump out the window hahaha :joylick::heart::heart::heart::heart:

[Kameroon]

Baaaaah.. fuck it.

[cigi]

Baaaaah.. fuck it.


Does that mean you've already pivoted, Mur?

[Pina Colada]

Baaaaah.. fuck it.
Good advice Mury.

You can't control circumstances.I tried,others tried,ain't working I'm telling ya.
So just follow your own "fuck it" advice and enjoy your life.
Fucking fuck it.Cuz you know what?It will turn out ok,it always does.You always bubble up.Big U has your back.Now go and have some fun.Wank a little,it will build off some tension.Eat a nice sandwich and take a good nap.You'll feel better and will stop hindering everything good to come to you.And believe me,there is an avalanche of that.

Love you Muryto:heart:

[Kameroon]

hahahahaha OMG pina.. I laughed out ... =)
thank you.

I just really wish to know what am I thinking that I am feeling this way.. but I cant. and it drives me nuts. haha =)
but yeah, fuck it i mean. fuck it... ill be fine.

well pina just made it easyier but i havent turned around completely.. but i will.. soon... =) hehe mwa cigi =)

[Dance of Joy]

Prepave the way you want it to be.

[Kameroon]

right. have to start creating what I want. i have such rrush emotions right now.. ohhh.. lol

thank you guys =) I mean girls =) heheh

[ShelleP]

I just really wish to know what am I thinking that I am feeling this way.. but I cant. and it drives me nuts. haha =)
but yeah, fuck it i mean. fuck it... ill be fine.


Ha - I get myself into this one all of the time...as long as I'm trying to figure out, hey, what happened, why am I feeling this way???? I get stuck there. Stuck sucks...fuck it, distract, get in happy...:p

[Gina]

Good advice Mury.

You can't control circumstances.I tried,others tried,ain't working I'm telling ya.
So just follow your own "fuck it" advice and enjoy your life.
Fucking fuck it.Cuz you know what?It will turn out ok,it always does.You always bubble up.Big U has your back.Now go and have some fun.Wank a little,it will build off some tension.Eat a nice sandwich and take a good nap.You'll feel better and will stop hindering everything good to come to you.And believe me,there is an avalanche of that.

Love you Muryto:heart:

That is the best advice I have ever heard, on any subject, ever.
You are a fucking goddess, Pina. :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:

[Dance of Joy]

I agree with Gina. Perfect advice.

[Rodney]

As Pina said, you can't control the circumstances. But you can soften up your resistance to it, so that you experience a gentler ride on the stream. Go kicking and screaming, or go willingly; either way, you're going to go.

[Kameroon]

I was crying 10 minutes ago.... but as i began to cry I started laughing at myself at the same time. if someone taped that.. i would be famous in one day hahahah =)

totally skizofrenia hahahah

[Rodney]

Yeah, I bet... I always thought if you were popular, it would be for something weird. If you were wearing a wig at the time, and you had lip stick all over your face... that sort of thing... would make you popular.

[Pina Colada]

That is the best advice I have ever heard, on any subject, ever.
You are a fucking goddess, Pina. :heart::heart::heart::heart::heart:
Well honey,takes one to know one,right?:heart:
And yes,I did a new advice strategy.I just said what I thought I needed to hear,cuz I saw Mury worrying too much like I do sometimes.

[Flo]

Some very practical advice from Sonia....she has a book and CD set called Trust Your Vibes, that has a lot of very practical and grounded advice about living in the physical world as a spiritual/vibrational being. Basic self-care. Basic management of vibration and energy which translates into alot of Self-Love and self-care and self-appreciation. For me, it's a book that should be titled, What I Never Learned in School, but Should Of!

Although different than Abe, I find her suggestions very compatible with Abe....definitely very focused on the positive, creativity and trusting your own inner guidance. She's has a very maternal vibe.....but she is a spiritual warrior. That wonderful, delicious blend of energies.

As always, take or leave, Trust YOUR vibes.

YouTube- Sonia Choquette: Stuck in Negativity? Snap out of it NOW!

[Kameroon]

wow i love this sonia video.

[Kameroon]

thank you so much for Sonia =) LOL
omg i love her =) its probably one of the nicest people I hear. I love ittt . =) she flows so well =)

[Rodney]

She seemed insightful and wise until she started to act out the choking exercises. At which point I realized she was crazy, and she lost all her credibility.

[Kameroon]

lool.
i like her =) maybe because im crazy too =)

[Kameroon]

Leah you make me laugh so much. I don't know if youre kidding or youre serious.
But people, I said fuck this school.
Fuck this system. I wont feel bad anymore about this. FUCKKK THEM

I am taking my time off from this school.... I will get myself the status for students of course so I can work and concentrate on my music. Which is what I always wanted.

FUCK THEM.

=) yeyyyyy =)