dream ~ highlights an old fear

[Dance of Joy]

I had the most disgusting dream last night, rather like a nightmare. I was at a translation exam. For the exam, we were to translate the story written before us on a blackboard. I kept wanting to describe all that I saw (somehow I was able to go into the story itself and observe everything live), not limit myself to the written words. I felt joy going into the story and translating all that I saw in addition to the written words we were given. But that way was taking me ten times longer than anyone else and I would not finish in time. I knew that this is not the way everyone else was doing it and that I would fail. So I quit doing it, from frustration. I awoke in abject fear (I still have nausea in my belly) feeling that I was a failure, that I would never manifest my career dream (as public speaker, life coach, writer).

This is an old fear lurking within. I am so glad it came out in a dream so that I can clean it up.


Posting it here feels like a bit of relief, releasing this old, old vibration.




Love,
Christine

[Dance of Joy]

Isn't it wonderful that I had this dream?
Isn't it great that I am drawn to know that this lurks in little bits within me?
Isn't it great that I know what to do with that?
Isn't it amazingly divine that I no longer live in the life situation that created this vibe??!!! YES!
Isn't it fantastic that I believe in myself more and more?
Isn't it a relief to know that that is only going to get better and better?
Isn't it great to know that my dream is NOT my reality? That I get to choose to feel differently about myself than that?
Isn't it wonderful to know that Source adores my every cell, my every thought, my every action?
Isn't it wonderful to know that I am starting to also?

:heart::heart::heart:

[Gina]

Yes, it is. :heart:
You are perfect. :heart:
Thank you for being such a beautiful teacher of pivoting. :heart:

[Dance of Joy]

Thank you, Gina. :love:

Isn't it cool that I don't want to do things by the book?
Isn't it cool that I follow my joy as my guide? YES!!
Isn't that, in fact, what makes me special as a coach, speaker and writer? YES!!
Isn't it true that the path I am following is perfect for me? That comparison to others is pointless?
Doesn't it feel good to walk my own, unique path? YES!!
Isn't it interesting that, in my dream, I felt joy and ease as I translated what I felt was important, and that negative emotion showed up only when I compared myself to others? YES!!

I am in the perfect place for me.
I am always moving toward what I desire.
From the contrast of what I lived, amazing things have been created.
I love myself more with every passing week.

[Pina Colada]

You don't need us huh?You just bitch than you go straight to your young,happy self.
The more happier you are,the more all those limiting beliefs pop out...They stand out more...Enjoy it...They fade as we speak..:heart::heart::heart:

[Dance of Joy]

Amen, Pina! :love:

I just cannot STAND feeling that shitty vibe and I REFUSE to believe that what I was told was true! FUCK THAT! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr! rofl

Ooo, that was fun.

[Pina Colada]

I love when something like that comes up in my life.I just look at it,I laugh at it and I do my own thing anyway.Like with my parents basically.Just confront it and laugh it off,it's not worth any other reaction.It's friggin' fun!

"What, you came to make me feel worthless??Bahahhahahaha!Just look at me how I shine anyway!"

Ooo and a healthy dose of love..They hate that and shrink to the size of a amoeba.

[Dance of Joy]

LOL Pina! I came to post the exact same sentiment:

You think I am WHAT??! rofl Okay, jerk, just watch me wow the world with ALL THAT I AM!

[Mariposa]

Hey, Dancey! I had a bad dream too last night! Wait, I was awake, right. I woke up in the middle of the night thinking about... :confused:... uhm... I don't wanna say it out loud... but check my last posts!

or not...

Love how you let it flow Christine! Way to go... ^^

[asjairok]

but Christine, don't you think professor woud be so amazed for phenomenal translated part ? that he would notice
there is something special about your translation D?

[asjairok]

http://rs6.net/on.jsp?t=1102678235261.0.1011013268068.364173&ts=S0407&o=http://ui.constantcontact.com/images/p1x1.gif Last night, Christine, I was dreaming of you, again.

You were radiant, confident, and light beamed in every direction from the core of your being. Music followed you, angels serenaded you, and everyone was elevated by your presence. Wisdom shown from your eyes. Kindness emanated from your touch. And your power was simply awesome.

You looked, well... pretty much... exactly as you do right now.
Wow,
The Universe

[Dance of Joy]

Yes, Ana. :hug:

Thank you for posting the TUT message for today here. PERFECTION.

If I look at the nightmare from another direction, it is a beautiful dream. :love::love::love:

[Dance of Joy]

The way I approach coaching and speaking and writing is unique to me.

I bring to all that I do All that I Am.

I bring my own brand of wisdom and connection. I bring my heart.

I am not like every coach or speaker or writer. Nor do I wish to be. I am Me.

People who will be uplifted by what I have to share are seeking me. :heart::heart::heart:

I trust JOY as my guide.

[Dance of Joy]

Mmm.. yes to all that, Sierra. I am delighted with where I am (we are).... :grin:

WE GOT DA POWAH!

[Dance of Joy]

I love my tears for the release they give me. I love myself as I allow the pain to rise and I release it. I am so proud of me! I am glad that I am so happy and joyful most of the time that these old beliefs are called to rise and be released.

Nothing has gone wrong. I am releasing it at the pace that is perfect for me.

I love me. I am proud of me. :love::love::love:

[Tai]

Wow Christine, one perfect emotional journey in this thread :heart: