I want to be where U guys are!!

[thesweetnow]

^^

You know who you are.

Always in the fecking Vortex.
Always fricking happy and spewing la, la, la.

I can't get there.
I can't stay there.
Hey, I feel slightly better - pissed off - am I in the Vortex???

Another cool club I can't really join, cuz I can't really get a handle on it.
Oh, intellectually I get it.

Whateva!!! I'm just dealing with yet another rejection. Screw life lessons. I mean, really, c'MON! I'm over this.
I've been reviewing my life and whoever I've had big, big love for TAKES OFF - goes A RUNNING AWAY FROM ME.

How can I really be LOVE and live in ease, excitement and joy whenever the Universe hands me a wonderful new connection and they end up leaving me???! I'm talking girl-friends, guys - equal-opportunity reject-me-fest.

I'm in a shit place. Maybe too intense when I AM in the vortex and then my loved ones leave.
And not in the vortex enough to hang, really hang, with you guys in delicious vortex-y stuff.

Sigh.
Aren't I getting more self-aware? Aren't I any the wiser?!! Why put anyone in my path just to have them spit on me.
I just want to be loved in return.
And I'm NOT a spaz. I turn off the switch when people do on me - but it's artificial. Then I just stew for months and months.

The big love always turns to crapity crap crap. Seriously not gleaning any more awareness of self through it all.

(just had to get this out. hopefully that'll open the door to my feeling better soon....)

TSN

[fresh beginnings]

What is a spaz?

[thesweetnow]

What is a spaz?


maybe more a verb than a noun....:)


i just meant I try to not hound or 'beg' after someone when they want to do their vibing away from me thing. i feel the big love and connection, then the other is there feeling it too, then they're done. such strength i don't have.
i'm just not done when others are and that's a rejection-feeling bummer for me.

[fresh beginnings]

Been there. Done that.

Abraham says that what you are missing is not them but really your own joyful self.

They were only an object that allowed you to connect to source energy.

When you looked at the person (friend or lover) a feeling of love would course through your veins, and it is this feeling that you are in love with.

If you find something else to flow love towards (hobby, a new person etc.) then you'll get the same feeling.

Then you wont miss them.

[LOALola]

Fresh Beginnings and The Sweet Now,

Not to bring up another sheep joke, FB, but I see the lambs are talking. FB and I were chatting yesterday and telling sheep jokes, so that's how I called you 2 my little lambs and me the sheep, The Sweet Now. FB is going to be a sheep real fast - as is TSN as soon as she lets herself become a sheep. Ewe shouldn't take sheep jokes seriously, however, don't goat there! :facelol::facelol:

FB, The Sweet Now doesn't like to seize her manifestations when they arrive, so they flow downstream. I see nothing in you, TSN, that would make you attract rejection, at all. You are a marvelous spirit. What I do see is that you drive away your manifestations because you don't line up with them when they appear. I gave you an Abe quote yesterday about that in an email. You don't know if you want to stay or go, so your manifestations will continue to move downstream until you line up with whichever one you want.

You mentioned deep love, if you don't go for it, it moves downstream. That's not a rejection, it's the process.

Everyone on this site keeps telling people to go look at the new The Vortex video on the Abraham-Hicks home site. I'll find the link .... http://www.lawofattractioninteraction.com/TheVortex.php

On the new video, Esther describes exactly your dilemma, The Sweet Now. The universe is giving you everything you want and you deserve it! But you also have to be ready to receive. That's something only your IB can decide. Lately, you've said you have a long history of lower vibes about your self image at home and desire to move to a higher plane for yourself, but you only are ready to line up with your manifestations every other day, philosophically, in what you tell me.

Once again, TSN, you seem concerned about more than one manifestation passing by. It might take 68 seconds, it might take 68 weeks, or 68 years for you to line up with whichever manifestation is the one that will deeply satisfy you. It's always about you because you create your life. If you miss one love manifestation, Esther said the universe will send you another. It keeps flowing. I do understand how that, however, can feel impossible since the universe did not send most of us that many great love choices in the pre-Abe days! :facelol:

Until your IB is ready to make a decision about the truly best choice for you, your manifestations will just keep passing by. It is not rejection, it is the process. If you're not ready, there is nothing wrong with that; you are where you are. The universe takes care of us if we know it will.

You are a divine spiritual being, The Sweet Now. You have every reason to love yourself. The universe is taking care of you. Just listen to your IB and move to that higher level of feeling good when you are ready to line up with the best situation for you. Only you know the answer - and I know you already know that. I know I ALWAYS say, go for the deep love and act now. But that's me. You are you. You have to do totally what your IB feels.

We can hold your hand, but only you have the answers.

Love to you both! :heart::heart::heart:

LOA Lola







FB, I wish we could get the same feeling from a hobby as from love, but I doubt it.

[thesweetnow]

:heart:
FB and LOALola - thanks for reaching out.

I did watch that video and DING!! heard the parts for me.
AND I listened to the CD from back of the VORTEX book (listened to both after I had posted) - and I hear it. I hear it but need it to really click. click CLICK for me. And it will.

I'm not a fan of going on and on 'bout my recent ish-ews. I find myself feeling stuck in the rejected feelings and then remembering proof of how I've been rejected in the past. Even if I roll it all back to my dad leaving the family when I was a little kid....whatever! He's in my life now and loving and trying to make up for whatever he thinks he should make up for. So, many old hurts have calmly and lovingly been resolved. And this has been since I've really turned back and soaked in Abraham and developed a rocking relationship with the expanded ME ME ME!

You guys, for the last few days I keep taking a look at the clock and it's 1:11, or 11:11. Dig it. Just makes me smile.

Really, if I think about it, I'm on my way to all my desires. I do know I'm in the right direction. I have more and more knowing that I'm in my vortex and it is SO FUN!

I'm just having trouble letting my last lovity-love connection go, because .....I'm not sure where/how I'll ever feel that way again. That I can feel that way on my own. I just wanted more time to flow flow flow on that one. Because it felt so good to me. What a delicious excuse this person was for me to be totally aligned with ME!

I had a girlfriend 'kick me to the curb' and this guy and they were definitely intense connections for me. Soul-mates through and through. And I think they were afraid of my ....flowing. They are both negative (caught up in the powerlessness of having crappy stuff going on in their lives and not being able to change it) people, but expressive and interesting and when they're downstream it's incredible. And, in a way I feel like Source was reminding them of their divinity - through me. If I stumble in loving myself unconditionally 24/7 - well at least I know I CAN feel the big stuff by meeting and vibe-syncing with certain people just flowing LOVE on 'em.

Anyway, I'm on my way. All this is helping me get there. I dig getting more self-aware. I have to give everyone else a break, I feel.

:joylick:It's all good. Really, really good.

:heart:The Now is Sweet.

[Rodney]

How can I really be LOVE and live in ease, excitement and joy whenever the Universe hands me a wonderful new connection and they end up leaving me???! I'm talking girl-friends, guys - equal-opportunity reject-me-fest.

1. You get into the vortex, by telling it like it is through your inner beings eyes. And you don't have to tell the story of relationships if you don't know what your inner being would say about that. You tell the story of a flower, or someone else's happy relationships, or how you like cookies. Whatever you can use to get you in the vortex. And as you tell that story, as you see it from inside the vortex, you begin to feel that stream of well-being moving through you again.

2. Whenever a thought boots you out of the vortex, you say, "Ah HA! YOU, you're the one that is booting me out! You are the one that is not true! Well, no more! You are no longer going to boot me out of the vortex!" And then you clean up that thought, you pivot that thought. You ask, "Inner being, how do YOU see this experience?!" And from now on, you tell that story instead.

And now, when you think about relationship, it no longer boots you out of the vortex, and you allow that stream of well-being to flow longer and longer.

[Rodney]

AND I listened to the CD from back of the VORTEX book (listened to both after I had posted) - and I hear it. I hear it but need it to really click. click CLICK for me. And it will.

Esther talks a mile a minute. It is incredible how much information she crams in each sentence. Just keep listening to it over and over, or slow it down, or transcribe the whole recording.

And you will see. A bunch of stuff that you missed, suddenly becomes clear. And you're like, "WOW, how did I miss that?"

I notice when she speaks, after like 15 seconds I begin to space out. And I have to pause the recording, and rewind, and play it again. When you're not ready to hear it, that's what happens. And so, I force myself! Ha ha ha. I say noooo, I want to understand this today! :grin:

[Chamber]

What is a spaz?

Me.

:joylick:

[LOALola]

Dear The Sweet Now,

(Sorry for the delay. I accidentally lost my first post and had to redo this.)

You just said what is wrong! Hooray! You just had a breakthrough in your last post.

You are so hard on yourself. There is much to love about you. Just love yourself and know that the universe has been and still is looking out for you! Just because you don't see it does not mean the universe isn't delivering - and it will continue to do so. You simply have to line up with the manifested desire that makes you happy.

Lately, you've been asking for rejection - and even seeing it when it's not there.

Here's your big breakthrough ... !

You said: "I find myself feeling stuck in the rejected feelings and then remembering proof of how I've been rejected in the past. Even if I roll it all back to my dad leaving the family when I was a little kid...."

I didn't know about your dad.

You are vibing rejection because you have not forgotten rejection on your past. The universe even has delivered your father, trying to make it easier for you to FORGET his failings of the past. YOU ABSOLUTELY MUST FORGET THE NEGATIVES OF YOUR PAST to make all of this work for you. That's it! You're living in the past with this rejection idea. That's why you can't line up with your future and your manifestations in the now!

It sounds impossible, but it's surprisingly easy to forget the negatives of the past when you isolate the problem and believe you want it to end - to be forgotten. I had to do that, myself. It was the key to my entire turnaround. It can be done! I had some big assholes I'd manifested from my old negative vibes in the past - and, for the wonderful ME, I've forgotten them and any bad feelings I had about them. I love all of my past now and forgot the asses. If I had NOT forgotten the negatives of my past, I would not be here today knowing everything is perfect and that beautiful universe is indeed what I create!

We can help you here with how to forget, but also go to AbeQuotes.com and look up PAST and FORGET. It's easy to register there. You can forgive it all, of course, but forgetting is easier and really is better in my opinion. Forgetting carries no vibe with it at all - it's gone!

Again, just because you see rejection, does not mean that's what's happening with other people. It is not rejection. It's just the process. Until your IB is ready to align with your manifestations, they will keep disappearing downstream. The new The Vortex video explains that perfectly.

You talk of the GF and school man manifestations in opposite terms; they are your soulmates and live in the negative???? They are big, big loves. At least one of them gets you into the vortex and makes your self and soul vibe. (I can't look up the quote from you to get it right because I don't want to zap this thread again, so I repeated the gist of it.) Well, I know enough about what you've said in the past that you reject the negatives at home that diminish your self image, so I know you're smarter than to be so attracted to more negative people to repeat the process. But are either or both really negative people? Same goes for friends in your life. Only your IB knows. Is your fear of rejection vibe sending negative vibes into positive feelings? They can't be great and horrid or you wouldn't call it big, big loves - or at least I certainly hope not. :facelol: Isolate those feelings. When you deal with your fear of rejection and imagine in your IB that none of your manifestations have rejected you, then how do you feel about each of your manifestations? I know school man has some outside personal reasons that might lock him out of your life; that's not a rejection of you; it's just that he's staying put possibly. Everybody has their own experience.

From this minute, STOP that language of rejection altogether. Nobody gave you the boot or rejected you or those other things you tell yourself. Don't think or say or write negative things that attack yourself. It's the process. It's not rejection. It's the natural process of the universe. The universe is giving you everything you want. One day, when your IB is ready, you will line up with it.

Love yourself because there is so much to love about you!

You also said, in the end, something about not bothering people with your problems. (Again, I'm paraphrasing so I don't zap this post). You never ever could bother us at Abe Talk; that's why we're all here - for you, for each other (and for laughs to be happy now!) I care about you, so everything you say is downstream for me.

I also forgot to add in my last post that hobbies are great, but they don't replace love. Wish that they did. :grin:

11:11 gave you good help about getting into the vortex and reiterated to watch the new The Vortex video.

Your mission is to forget the past to get in the vortex and line up with your true desires. Only your IB knows what your true desires are. I can't help you with that. Nobody can. It's your own universe. Create it in any beautiful way you want!

Love,

LOA Lola




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[thesweetnow]

:grin:

LOA Lola,
I was sitting outside on really a perfectly gorgeous afternoon, and my little guy was playing and I eased into my vortex.

Your saying I wasn't rejected. Your saying maybe school guy has to stay put and wasn't rejecting me. Yes, that IS what occurred. That is what is. Some drama was stirred up (only by me) to get to where I could let things go. I needed to be angry to let it go.

I see that I had 'trained myself' (Abe says that a lot in the Vortex CD) to leave people/relationships or they leave me and I would try to be strong and not feel. Can't explain....new now....

I want to acknowledge so much that was good in my connection with the friends and loves. I know just focusing on the good will help me feel better. So much was good. That's all I have to do. I'm safe in those feelings.
Lola, you said the Universe is sending all my desires my way - and I get that my feeling bad is not the truth of what went on. And if anything is meant to be with any old friends and loves and renewed love with my current guy, I'll just keep loving myself more and more and allowing and allowing and allowing and maybe some will vibrate back into my experience, maybe they won't. But I will only remember and focus on what was good.
Focus on what is good. No reason to do anything else.

In my vortex and tears came out. It was really good.

It feels so much better to just know I loved, I was loved, I AM loved always always always by my Inner Being.

THANK YOU so much for guiding me back to my desires and my Vortex.

:heart::heart:So much love and appreciation for this place and for y'all. :heart::heart:

later: re-read this and said lots of "good" and "love". that's really all I can think right now.

[LOALola]

Dear The Sweet Now,

You sound much better already - and much kinder to yourself. Yes! You should be. You are so wonderful. Everyone can see that! And you're talking truth to yourself. And I see you do realize that R word has been a false word that you've carried around for ages. It is a wonderful day, huh?

When you wrote: "... I had 'trained myself' (Abe says that a lot in the Vortex CD) to leave people/relationships or they leave me and I would try to be strong and not feel. Can't explain....new now...."

You don't have to explain. I understand from what you've said before. Your manifests aren't rejecting you; you realize that it's just that you won't reach out at all because you imagine rejection first. So they, of course, keep moving downstream because you wave goodbye before you've said hello!

You reject love from lovers and friends before they reject you, so you never succeed at this higher level of expansive love that you desire because you're trying not to get hurt. You won't let yourself be happy. By doing what you've been doing, however, of course you're not really protecting yourself, that's a lie that word carries. It's that fucking R word that you left behind today! Tomorrow, maybe you can wake up and leave it out of your heart and FORGET about it forever!

Write the word largely on a piece of paper and tear it up tonight. It's a good image to see it leaving you!

Being in the vortex makes you see everything as good. When you think good, you get back good. That's wonderful. The universe is good. Abe said there is nothing evil and nothing to fear.

It's still OK to evaluate people on their own merits as you go through life, just leave out your past and any thoughts about the R word when you think of people. Each of your love manifestations from the universe are going to be something like 85% positive and 15% negative. (I can't think of the Abe quote on that, and that's a very rough paraphrase.) Nobody is perfect. But when you have unconditional love, you'll see the positives, not the negatives. When you see high negatives, it's coming from you, not the universe. That's true of all of us. At this point, you don't have to worry about that. Just go with the flow. You very much seem to be in it!

You're still not quite getting Step 3 of a manifest. Listen again to the 10-minute The Vortex video that came out last night, which I sent you the link to in an earlier post in this thread. (Don't try to absorb the whole Vortex CD; it's way too much right now.)

You have to take action. You can't just watch all of your manifestations flow by and allow. According to Esther in that video, your manifestations will just keep going downstream if you don't reach out and get them, they're not going to turn back or wait.

See, this is a totally nonaction thought. "And if anything is meant to be with any old friends and loves and renewed love with my current guy, I'll just keep loving myself more and more and allowing and allowing and allowing and maybe some will vibrate back into my experience, maybe they won't." Your manifestations don't get up and chase you down. :grin: The flow by.

You wrote today because you've been pushing all of your manifested friends and lovers downstream and mistakenly calling it rejection from them. So if all of this is happening at once for you, your manifests haven't floated that far away. You still may be able to take action on recent manifests that YOU DESIRE, big or small, if it make you happy. Don't just sit there and look at the stream. Listen to Esther again, Sweet Now.

The universe has given you everything you want. You don't have to start your whole cycle from scratch. You've opened your eyes today. Look at the beautiful universe you already created. Take what you want. It's all yours. There is no rejection. Only love. Esther says it's your stuff. It always has been your stuff. You just have to take it when it flows by! It's an ongoing stream of wonderfulness.

Everytime you get in the vortex, like you desired and did today, it gets easier!

Isn't this a great thing you said: "It feels so much better to just know I loved, I was loved, I AM loved always always always by my Inner Being." That realization of self love is so important! You are so worthy! :heart:

You are right, there is lots of good and love in your thoughts tonight. That's the vortex and that is you! :heart:

Good love to you! :heart:

LOA Lola

[asjairok]

^^

You know who you are.

Always in the fecking Vortex.


TSN
oh this is great song

[LOALola]

Asjairok,

You're right, "you know who you are" is like a song. It reminded me of a song I love, 1234 by Feist.

Here's the chorus.

Oh, you're changing your heart
Oh, you know who you are
Oh, you're changing your heart
Oh, you know who you are
Oh, who you are

That applies to all of us!

Love, :heart:

LOA Lola