Jen2174
Sat May 17 2008, 1:02pm
Last night I wagered on horse racing four times and had been thinking about it all week. I thought i believed I could win. then when I got there, i realized I didnt believe after all but stupidly kept playing. It brought down my vibration big time and caused me to question everything in my life including why the new story ive been telling myself hasnt come true regardless of how good ive felt, and even though your not supposed to take score so to speak, I cant sit here until im gray waiting for my life to change. Its hard to get strangers to understand me when noone knows me personally on here, but how do you change your beliefs on a subject? abarahm says to make it a dominant thought, but in general regarding money, I thought ive done that and I have always been someone who believed I didnt have to work for money, and that it can come from the strangest sources. I even though the horse racing was an inspired action thing because i was excited whenever i thought about it. now its knocked the wind out of my sales. if i cant believe a horse can win, then what can i believe? i couldnt believe the simplest thing and now im confused. I know the universe can deliver the money anyway it wants to and what bothers me is that ive put enough of what i want in my vibrational escrow to be a billionaire. i have a folder a mile long on my computer, and ive accounted for every cent of it. i just dont know what else to do. its obvious my vibe is down, but if any of you reply, please try and tell me what i can do from a higher vibe, because ill get back there again as soon as I can. sometimes i feel its a waste of time being high up and having positive expecation because supposedly if there was no resistance then it would have been here already and thats the part that boggles me to death. Ive been very clear on what i want and as abe says "tell the prosperity story if you want it to be in your experience" well ive done that and ive paid close attention to how i felt religiously day in and day out and i have moments where im down but i stick to it so i can get back up again. i just cant understand why a person has to be orgasmic before they can allow things into their experience.