Mariposa
Tue May 06 2008, 5:23pm
HI All
I work with my mom, well, I don't anymore, I kinda quit. And it's only been two days. When I first started (a year ago) it's not like I wanted to, I felt it was necessary and it felt really good when I started being useful to her and so many ppl (clients). I only kept working there because it made me feel better about being useless. But now that I think about it, that is NOT inspired action, that not why you do smth, it's a compensating action to make a bad feeling less bad. So after a year, I guess the feeling never really went away, because it's been two days of not working and I already feel uncomfortable in my skin. I feel like someone is watching me as I do nothing, and judging me. I feel like I'm doing smth wrong, or worse, I'm not doing the right thing. Now since when do I care about right or wrong?? :scratch: Well I dunno, but I feel weird, I feel not that bad just... outta place. I quit because the job was not for me, that I'm sure. I have stated to the Universe that I want a new job where I can feel useful yet entertained or joyful, pleased to do it, comfortable, inspired, I want to enjoy it and I want to feel I'm GOOD at it! I want a job (or activity that gets me money) where I can feel that I belong in there, or doing that. But I know I won't just instantly manifest this, right? I mean, I could be hopeful, but.. what should I do about this icky feeling in the mean time?
What does Abraham or Bashar or Eckart Tolle say about being useful to others or being a part of society? This is a new feeling for me since I was always very selfish as a child and would never help in the housework or anythin.. but now I feel like I don't deserve all this free time or... I need to DO SMTH!! but not just a crappy job... I want to feel good!!
Some words of Wisdom for Marina please?? ^^
thank you thank you thank youu
I work with my mom, well, I don't anymore, I kinda quit. And it's only been two days. When I first started (a year ago) it's not like I wanted to, I felt it was necessary and it felt really good when I started being useful to her and so many ppl (clients). I only kept working there because it made me feel better about being useless. But now that I think about it, that is NOT inspired action, that not why you do smth, it's a compensating action to make a bad feeling less bad. So after a year, I guess the feeling never really went away, because it's been two days of not working and I already feel uncomfortable in my skin. I feel like someone is watching me as I do nothing, and judging me. I feel like I'm doing smth wrong, or worse, I'm not doing the right thing. Now since when do I care about right or wrong?? :scratch: Well I dunno, but I feel weird, I feel not that bad just... outta place. I quit because the job was not for me, that I'm sure. I have stated to the Universe that I want a new job where I can feel useful yet entertained or joyful, pleased to do it, comfortable, inspired, I want to enjoy it and I want to feel I'm GOOD at it! I want a job (or activity that gets me money) where I can feel that I belong in there, or doing that. But I know I won't just instantly manifest this, right? I mean, I could be hopeful, but.. what should I do about this icky feeling in the mean time?
What does Abraham or Bashar or Eckart Tolle say about being useful to others or being a part of society? This is a new feeling for me since I was always very selfish as a child and would never help in the housework or anythin.. but now I feel like I don't deserve all this free time or... I need to DO SMTH!! but not just a crappy job... I want to feel good!!
Some words of Wisdom for Marina please?? ^^
thank you thank you thank youu