Contrast : My husband thinks I'm splurging our money

[Cantabile]

Ever since I have discovered Abe. A lot of things changed at home. But I especially notice the change in me. I no longer feel depressed, defeated, sad or angry. I admit that it comes back but I no longer dwell on those feelings.

I feel so liberated! So light! So free! So Me!

With my unkempt excitement. I shared these teachings to him (my husband). At first he was convinced that this was a great philosophy. But then, "logical" as he is, he always reminds me to be "realistic" about what I want. And boy did I tell him, "You forgot one thing: I am never "realistic" about anything." with a big grin. He's been agitated about my new energy. Especially when it comes to money. I feel it coming to me. I can see and touch them right now. I point everything that I want, that I desire. I told him, I have bought this nice bed or I have bought this huge stove. At some point he's playing the game with me.

He noticed that I am happy-go-lucky when it comes to money. I spend it without worrying or frowning. This disturbs him I think.

When everyone is worried, I am the last person to be like that. This has always been my behavior. When I was a kid, I did question myself why I was like that but anyway...all is well. :)

But not yesterday. It was a simple topic brought up by me. I just suggested that we look up at this remittance service called xoom if we want to get our money right away. From the word "get our money right away". He flared up. He fired away saying that I want to spend our money till the last cent. That I am always like that. I always want easy money till nothing's left for us.

He thinks my philosophy and this wallet process I'm exercising is foolish. That I only have a P100 bill---I have no money yet and I am already spending them with lots of things. I mean I am playing with this and he's trying to get me into feeling fucked up again.

Sigh, but is he persistent to get me to listen to him. It's like he is a missile, firing away and there I am with my hands up. I just sighed. "Ooo-kay." God he talks like them. There upstream thought again. :cry: He upsets me more and more lately. What is wrong? I mean I didn't push on my beliefs anyway, I mean I just kept some things to myself. I don't want to judge on them anymore. That'll add to more upstream thoughts in my end. But man, they are nuts! And boy, most of the people I know try soooo hard to convince me that their method is right. :shock:

I realized that humans have been programmed to struggle make things hard for them. When well, here it is, it's so easy to have all the things you want.

And so I give up. Not on Abe. Not on myself. But I'll let go on this upstream thought about my husband and him trying to controll my thoughts.

This is a very sensitive topic for me. If anyone has skype. Please add me there: tangerinelullaby

I'd be so glad to talk with fellow Abers there. :hug: :hug: :hug:

[New Dawn Rising]

Hello Tangerine. Sounds like your husband is nervous and worried - since you are so happy-go-lucky about money and playing with the wallet process. Maybe he fears that you really will start spending all the money and he will have nothing to say about it?

You are more on the leading edge then he is. Maybe the best thing to do is play the wallet game and stuff like that by yourself more. Share with him but in a way that he will be receptive. When somebody is scared they cannot hear you. If you can soothe him then he will be able to hear you better and be more receptive to your ideas.

I am ahead of my husband too. In the beginning I was more careful in the way I talked about money with him because I knew he would be resistant. So I went slow and did not talk too much about my new ideas of money - that would have made him nervous and resistant. I did it little bit by little bit. And I showed him that it was OK to feel rich. Gradually he came along. But it took almost two years. Now we don't have any conflicts about money. He likes feeling rich too.

[yeslist]

The vibrational indicator that is triggering in you appears to be your relationship with self in reagard to your husbands vibration about money. If we are allowing others to choose their own experience then the ball falls back in your court,so to speak. What emotion is being indicated in your vibration in regard to how you feel about your husbands stance on money and what you do with it. Be open and the vibe will expose it self clearly for you to address with better feeling thoughts. This is a good thing. you get to draw in some energy to play with.
Cheers
Simon

[Cantabile]

Thanks Simon and Dawn. I agree with you that I should keep it to myself in the meantime. I have to let it go, his ideas and being resistant will not affect me if I don't let myself be. I'm just sometimes too frustrated at him talking about the law like that. :)

Anyway, it's fun to play with the processes I've learned and nothing is stopping. Thank you for the responses. :)

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[asjairok]

Hi , this is all going to get clear to you.
About :" realistic ", hahahahahahahahahaha rofl , that is some thing that makes you believe in limited Universe. Once Angels told me about my expectation to win some kind of lottery-that I think that it not realy possible this to happen. When you move in "real"you can't get very far. Reasonable and realistic are bla bla blas.

You can also stand so strong with your belief as he is standing to his. If you invite the money, for the thing that you wish for-it is your to decide in how are you going to spend it. If he calls that "our money" than you have to discuss it with him. You can tell to him in played anger once in a while: Don't be such a realistic! But if this don't feel like it for you, you don't.
You also have to discuss the way he does or doesn't support you. He has to let you be yourself, too. You can always play this game with money on a way that doesn't include other people - like husband. But eventually he is going to admit that you do do some miracles.
And also maybe he was in the moment disconnected and he said that thing to you-it was easier for him to tell you this, and release himself. But that doesn't mean that this is his ultimate belief.

[Cantabile]

Thanks Anna.

Whatever ideas I have I just keep it to myself now even if he reminds me of his ideas which is discouraging in my end. It works for him---but it doesn't work for me. I gotta play with it just a little bit enough to divert my attention from him instead of getting annoyed for the rest of the day. LOL.

I want to be so free in handling my money! So am gonna play with it by myself hehehe. :o

Downstream. Downstream. Downstream. :D

Anyway, I just had a dream this morning, I've seen how my house looks like...every detail of it and as well as the furnitures and appliances that I have put inside it. It looks so cozy, warm and full of love! :D

[asjairok]

great picture, suits the subject. :D

[Cantabile]

Hahaha! :P!

[Cantabile]

Hi 11:11,

Thanks for posting. That's a great point. lol. Yes. Out of frustration from his behavior. Here I am complaining here about that. I was for a few hours that day upset. But it wasn't long when I was able to bounce back to my happy and allowing self. So I just allowed him to say those things to me without dwelling on it.

I let him be him. :) And whether he know he it or not, he actually wants more money like me. He didn't realize it last night, when we were talking about things what he wants to buy that by doing that he's already shooting rockets of desire. I don't put an energy in fighting with him or nor do I try to reform him. I don't force him to be happy because I can not pull him out of his unhappy state. Only he can do that. What I can only do is to think about my well-being. :)

LOL. About being married, it's not always the same like this. We may be arguing about money while other couples are living their lives in a very allowing manner. ^__^ But now I am playing with it. No pushing against the current, I'm going downstream now. So don't let this situation bother you, 11:11. Be you. Play with life. If you want to settle down, don't let anything like this bother you. :P!

I think that's great though, that because of my situation, you may be somehow thinking of the things that you want should you get married. Is this right?

Thank you 11:11. :hug: And I think that wedding vow is beautiful. Are you going to use that when you get married? rofl

Love,
Yvie