Tai
Mon Sep 01 2008, 6:16am
A few years ago, something happened that made me afraid of traveling with a train. For a few years, I actually never did travel with the train. Whenever I had to go far, I tried to find someone with a car who wanted to drive me. (I have no drivers license) But slowly I started traveling with the train again, maybe once a year. I was always so happy that I didn't have to do it that often, because I always would get nervous days before, and while I was in the train I was nervous as well, it felt not good!
So then I met my love, and his parents live far, so that we have to go there by train. And not once a year, but 5 times a year. His best friend lives far as well, so we go there with the train as well. So the last years I've been in trains more than I love, and everytime I get all shaky days before, I dream bad, I feel anxious. And when I'm in the train I have to do my best to find positive feelings etc.
But... last Saturday was another day we visited my boyfriends mother, so when I felt shaky I thought to myself 'I don't want to go! I don't like trains, so why would I do this?' I felt better! Then my boyfriend was disappointed, but he said 'well, I'll go alone' And then I broke down in tears from relief, and at that moment I felt I really WANTED to go (I love his mother and we always have much fun) but that my fear was holding me back from actually enjoying it! That I was only concentrating on fear, not on how nice it could be! So, I did go, and I decided to GIVE IT OVER TO MY IB! I just trusted in my IB, and let the fear vanish to the background. And while I was in the train, I had fun with my love, we kissed a lot, decorated our dream house in our imaginations, I just did everything to feel good. And everytime I thought of my IB taking care of me, I felt so supported! And the time flew by! We had a wonderful day, so much fun and laughs and sunshine, I just chilled out completely. Then when it was time to go home again, I just went into the train again and did the same thing. It went really great, and I felt so loved, so supported, my IB just figured it all out!
So two things happened now
1) I decided that it's okay to no like traveling with the train, so that if it's not necessary I won't have to.
2) I know that whenever I do choose to go with the train, it will go ALRIGHT!
So this is my manifestation, I feel so proud of myself and I LOVE ME!
(and you guys as well :winking: )
Love :heart:
Tai
So then I met my love, and his parents live far, so that we have to go there by train. And not once a year, but 5 times a year. His best friend lives far as well, so we go there with the train as well. So the last years I've been in trains more than I love, and everytime I get all shaky days before, I dream bad, I feel anxious. And when I'm in the train I have to do my best to find positive feelings etc.
But... last Saturday was another day we visited my boyfriends mother, so when I felt shaky I thought to myself 'I don't want to go! I don't like trains, so why would I do this?' I felt better! Then my boyfriend was disappointed, but he said 'well, I'll go alone' And then I broke down in tears from relief, and at that moment I felt I really WANTED to go (I love his mother and we always have much fun) but that my fear was holding me back from actually enjoying it! That I was only concentrating on fear, not on how nice it could be! So, I did go, and I decided to GIVE IT OVER TO MY IB! I just trusted in my IB, and let the fear vanish to the background. And while I was in the train, I had fun with my love, we kissed a lot, decorated our dream house in our imaginations, I just did everything to feel good. And everytime I thought of my IB taking care of me, I felt so supported! And the time flew by! We had a wonderful day, so much fun and laughs and sunshine, I just chilled out completely. Then when it was time to go home again, I just went into the train again and did the same thing. It went really great, and I felt so loved, so supported, my IB just figured it all out!
So two things happened now
1) I decided that it's okay to no like traveling with the train, so that if it's not necessary I won't have to.
2) I know that whenever I do choose to go with the train, it will go ALRIGHT!
So this is my manifestation, I feel so proud of myself and I LOVE ME!
(and you guys as well :winking: )
Love :heart:
Tai