DownstreamDiva
Sun Aug 31 2008, 4:25pm
I like(d) that Actor, Heath Ledger, quite a lot! Not so much for his body of work, but more so for his body! I had me, one mini (ok, medium huge) crush, on that one, I did. For he reminded me of a certain, "tall drink of water" in the 8th. Grade. Steve something or other, a Surfer dude. With a lemon juiced, bleached out shaggy mess, almost white, with the look & glassy texture, of Angel hair, like in my fish tank. He was workin it back then, with some mean ass "wings", that used to glide along side him, in sheer perfection, like a God.
Wearin some bleach faded, low slung, button up, 501's & some well worn, plaid, con-concoction, of a shirt, swagering down, Navilla Street in his newest "Van's", in the ultra hip! (everyone knows)...Covina California!
With some other, often made, cool move, like he was, picking something out of his eye, or flippin a "wing" back. Don't ask me why, It worked for me. We we're deep inland, in the city, far from "hangin any 10", on any Waves. He made his own. I loved watching. He could do these amazing 360 thingy's on his skateboard & make my lil' 8th. grade heart swoon. Not even the "pukka shells" I gave him for his Birthday, that summer, caused him to have :heart: - :heart:, eye's , for me.
So when Heath returned to pure positive energy, earlier this year. I felt sadness. I thought about him for several days, as the media flooded us all, with images of him everywhere. And my eye's went right to them. I sat one day soon after the "Dear One" croaked, and simply pondered, all I would have liked to experienced with him, regardless of the current perceived reality...
My thoughts went something like this, "I wish I could have met him", "I wish I could have had a conversation with him.", I wish I could have hugged him" "I wish we could have kissed", I wish we could have... "ohh lot's of good, yummy, Sofa King, moaning like banshees, stuff! Most likely what your thinkin"! Unless your a purely a Hetro guy, than most likely, not those things!
With a simple, childlike, "asking", by making a "wish"(just asked/got out of the way/wouldn't that, have been nice/no attachment) I set into motion, a vibration, out forth from me, that beckoned, just such an experience, to be drawn & unfold perfectly, in a never imagined way. And for me to experience it, the only way I could, or could allow.
To tell you the truth, I didn't even know I was asking. No, but I was wanting & that is asking. And wanting is good, if my intentions are pure. and in my wanting, I am not needing. I would, meet this one who has returned, to the perceived other side.
A few days later, I had a dream of Heath. We were together in the downstairs of a Beach House, as comfortable as we could be. I could see the walls painted a bright, light yellow. Large, floor to ceiling windows were in front of us & I could see the Ocean waves moving back & forth, toward & away from us. We were sitting on the floor ascloseas2cansit. He was moving some hair, outta my eye's (what girl doesn't like that?) I was kinda shy,(ok, acting shy) but he was acting comfortable, like, we've known each other forever.
I could see his pretty, smooth face, a creamy tan color, the very color of a beautiful Moth, I held in my hand once & never forgot. As close, as I would ever want to see his flesh. With those juicy pink lips, teasing me, as he gently bit the bottom one & those 2 bowls of Chocolate Pudding, he had for eyes, melting me, as they still do now. We talked, we kissed & then I woke. "No no, come back, my sweet lover", we're just getting started".
I felt sad thru out the day, feeling's like I actual missed him. Like it was a real & an actual thing that just happen. It sure felt real to me. All the same emotions coursed thru me. Like sadness, grief, elation, passion. So I wonder, am I a Butterfly who's dreaming it's Me? Or am I dreaming, I am a butterfly. But thats another story...I put it out there again, that I wanted more of this experience. Again within a few days, we had another rondevoue, in my dreams.
This time we were upstairs, in that same house, A large room with wooden floors & a dark large rug, in front of a fireplace (Ya, gotta have a fire place) we were snuggled on. The room was dark, with the color of rich Cherry wood, that covered the walls & floors, creating our enviorment. And the Sun streaming in, from a far off window, like I love to see it, in the afternoon. It lit up our smiling faces.
I didn't waste anytime, this time. There was a part of me that knew, this would be fleeting. To take it all in at once, experience it, and more fully, later. I was creating my part & the Universe allowed Heath to play his part. And together we created just a lil' snippit of a movie together. But when I think of it, my heart swells & warms with good feelings. Ya can't by that at that at Amazon.com, now can ya?
It's just for me & for those that will allow...
Back to the rug...More huggin, more, kissin, more passion & the only words I can remember him saying to me, were "enjoy this, all of this, for you will enjoy this too" (I took it to mean, this life & the one where ever he is now). I woke up happy & smiling.
More & more I am fully coming to believe, when Abraham & the LOA tells me there is nothing I cannot be...do...have, if I am willing to "ask", "vibrationally align", "believe" "get out of the way" & allow the powers to be, to work their magic, I believe them. And if I will joyfully & willingly do my part. And that is, only to remember "What I think/feel about expands"...That the force of LOA will part the Red Seas & reach thru the Ethers, if need be, to bring me, all I desire to experience in my physical form, while on Holiday here, on Planet Earth, In a way, in any zillions of ways, I will always get to experience my fondest desires, if I allow! It IS LAW!
Like, kissing sweet Heaths beautiful lips, if only once or twice!
I have only evidence that LOA is real & 100%. And nothing thus far to show otherwise.
If only in my dreams, my wish was granted... It felt, every bit as good!
I found 2 large pictures of Heath & laminated them (cuz I have my very own groovy laminator of my own) with some phrases, this dear one inspired me to add. I surrounded one of his pic's with Sunflower's, my favorite, & the words "Let your goodness blossom" & "Things happen for a reason, just believe". And the other, just a big "LOVE" across his chest. Made um into magnets, so I can see them, when they catch my eye.
I decided, since I had a real life lover, not to intend meeting again in my dreams, for casual sex, unless he absolutely insisted! But rather, I speak to him directly, every once & a while, just to say "Hola". And it always feels good! Sassy good! He's fun, well they all are... now!
Peace & all dreams coming true, Lola :} *But first a dance from the "Happy Hamster, Clan"!
:hamsters: :hamsters: :hamsters: :hamsters: :hamsters: :hamsters: :hamsters: :hamsters:
Wearin some bleach faded, low slung, button up, 501's & some well worn, plaid, con-concoction, of a shirt, swagering down, Navilla Street in his newest "Van's", in the ultra hip! (everyone knows)...Covina California!
With some other, often made, cool move, like he was, picking something out of his eye, or flippin a "wing" back. Don't ask me why, It worked for me. We we're deep inland, in the city, far from "hangin any 10", on any Waves. He made his own. I loved watching. He could do these amazing 360 thingy's on his skateboard & make my lil' 8th. grade heart swoon. Not even the "pukka shells" I gave him for his Birthday, that summer, caused him to have :heart: - :heart:, eye's , for me.
So when Heath returned to pure positive energy, earlier this year. I felt sadness. I thought about him for several days, as the media flooded us all, with images of him everywhere. And my eye's went right to them. I sat one day soon after the "Dear One" croaked, and simply pondered, all I would have liked to experienced with him, regardless of the current perceived reality...
My thoughts went something like this, "I wish I could have met him", "I wish I could have had a conversation with him.", I wish I could have hugged him" "I wish we could have kissed", I wish we could have... "ohh lot's of good, yummy, Sofa King, moaning like banshees, stuff! Most likely what your thinkin"! Unless your a purely a Hetro guy, than most likely, not those things!
With a simple, childlike, "asking", by making a "wish"(just asked/got out of the way/wouldn't that, have been nice/no attachment) I set into motion, a vibration, out forth from me, that beckoned, just such an experience, to be drawn & unfold perfectly, in a never imagined way. And for me to experience it, the only way I could, or could allow.
To tell you the truth, I didn't even know I was asking. No, but I was wanting & that is asking. And wanting is good, if my intentions are pure. and in my wanting, I am not needing. I would, meet this one who has returned, to the perceived other side.
A few days later, I had a dream of Heath. We were together in the downstairs of a Beach House, as comfortable as we could be. I could see the walls painted a bright, light yellow. Large, floor to ceiling windows were in front of us & I could see the Ocean waves moving back & forth, toward & away from us. We were sitting on the floor ascloseas2cansit. He was moving some hair, outta my eye's (what girl doesn't like that?) I was kinda shy,(ok, acting shy) but he was acting comfortable, like, we've known each other forever.
I could see his pretty, smooth face, a creamy tan color, the very color of a beautiful Moth, I held in my hand once & never forgot. As close, as I would ever want to see his flesh. With those juicy pink lips, teasing me, as he gently bit the bottom one & those 2 bowls of Chocolate Pudding, he had for eyes, melting me, as they still do now. We talked, we kissed & then I woke. "No no, come back, my sweet lover", we're just getting started".
I felt sad thru out the day, feeling's like I actual missed him. Like it was a real & an actual thing that just happen. It sure felt real to me. All the same emotions coursed thru me. Like sadness, grief, elation, passion. So I wonder, am I a Butterfly who's dreaming it's Me? Or am I dreaming, I am a butterfly. But thats another story...I put it out there again, that I wanted more of this experience. Again within a few days, we had another rondevoue, in my dreams.
This time we were upstairs, in that same house, A large room with wooden floors & a dark large rug, in front of a fireplace (Ya, gotta have a fire place) we were snuggled on. The room was dark, with the color of rich Cherry wood, that covered the walls & floors, creating our enviorment. And the Sun streaming in, from a far off window, like I love to see it, in the afternoon. It lit up our smiling faces.
I didn't waste anytime, this time. There was a part of me that knew, this would be fleeting. To take it all in at once, experience it, and more fully, later. I was creating my part & the Universe allowed Heath to play his part. And together we created just a lil' snippit of a movie together. But when I think of it, my heart swells & warms with good feelings. Ya can't by that at that at Amazon.com, now can ya?
It's just for me & for those that will allow...
Back to the rug...More huggin, more, kissin, more passion & the only words I can remember him saying to me, were "enjoy this, all of this, for you will enjoy this too" (I took it to mean, this life & the one where ever he is now). I woke up happy & smiling.
More & more I am fully coming to believe, when Abraham & the LOA tells me there is nothing I cannot be...do...have, if I am willing to "ask", "vibrationally align", "believe" "get out of the way" & allow the powers to be, to work their magic, I believe them. And if I will joyfully & willingly do my part. And that is, only to remember "What I think/feel about expands"...That the force of LOA will part the Red Seas & reach thru the Ethers, if need be, to bring me, all I desire to experience in my physical form, while on Holiday here, on Planet Earth, In a way, in any zillions of ways, I will always get to experience my fondest desires, if I allow! It IS LAW!
Like, kissing sweet Heaths beautiful lips, if only once or twice!
I have only evidence that LOA is real & 100%. And nothing thus far to show otherwise.
If only in my dreams, my wish was granted... It felt, every bit as good!
I found 2 large pictures of Heath & laminated them (cuz I have my very own groovy laminator of my own) with some phrases, this dear one inspired me to add. I surrounded one of his pic's with Sunflower's, my favorite, & the words "Let your goodness blossom" & "Things happen for a reason, just believe". And the other, just a big "LOVE" across his chest. Made um into magnets, so I can see them, when they catch my eye.
I decided, since I had a real life lover, not to intend meeting again in my dreams, for casual sex, unless he absolutely insisted! But rather, I speak to him directly, every once & a while, just to say "Hola". And it always feels good! Sassy good! He's fun, well they all are... now!
Peace & all dreams coming true, Lola :} *But first a dance from the "Happy Hamster, Clan"!
:hamsters: :hamsters: :hamsters: :hamsters: :hamsters: :hamsters: :hamsters: :hamsters: